Hannah. 23. 75% Filipino and 25% Indian. Graphic Design major at CSU Sacramento.
I ♥: God, my family and friends, my boyfriend Cecilio, San Francisco, coffee, art/design, fashion, Anberlin, Mat Kearney, fitness/health, art history, Miranda Kerr, lying on the couch in my own random thoughts and little world, sushi, and many other things I can't think of right now.
I can’t sleep at all. It’s like almost 6 am. I think it’s a combination of prednisone, having coffee in the afternoon on the way to SF, and worrying about my grade(s: particular in typography class).
I had a great day though. Cecilio and I dropped off my mom and Sarah to the airport. They are in LA to spend time with my mom’s friends and Tita Sheila. I was going to go but I have a final on Monday along with a project.
Cecilio and I had a great time in SF though even though we came kinda late. We went to Serramonte Mall (my childhood memories consisted of being in this mall) and did some Christmas shopping, then Ocean Beach, then we ate at the Cliffhouse for dinner. It was a nice restaurant overlooking the beach. I had frutti de mar and it was amazing. C loved it too. After that, we also went to the huge Christmas tree by Union Square. Drank Starbucks and sat on a table. Just talking about life and how we are so lucky to have each other. I am lucky and blessed to have him! I’ve had boyfriends in the past and I would say I loved them, and I really thought I did at the time. But it was very much infatuation and immature. And I was too blind to see it. But this is different. Our love grows and it’s been almost 5 years, and I hope and pray it will continue to grow. I’m crying as I type this.
I am anxious to find out what my grade was in this book project in my typography class. I admit that I should have spent better time on it and not half assed it. Everyone thought that way but literally mine was the worst. I lacked detail, I made some huge mess ups, and I should have brought my laptop since it had all the fonts I used instead of saving them onto PDF on the school computers and sending them in to Dropbox. I was “exhausted” and “hungry” was not an excuse to not drive back home and bring my laptop back to school. And this is a 200 point project. I’m hoping I get a low C or D at best…it was that bad. My other 2 projects, out of 100 points, were 86 and 91. So I really hope that balances things out. I’m just really anxious because I don’t want to get kicked out of the program. I want to be great, not
good. And it’s going to take a lot of blood sweat and tears. I have been praying for grace and mercy about this. I can’t make any more excuses, I’m not having flare ups. I really want to make it to next semester and prove the professors that I have potential and can do this. I need to work on my work ethic. It’s better now but I could use more improvement. I must be more confident too. I see other people’s work and I get so deflated. How can they be so good but I can’t? Nope, not a good attitude. I have to remind myself that I can do this and be just as good as they are. I want to graduate and land a decent design internship/job. I know I can do this. I have potential. I need confidence and to rejoice in the strengths and acknowledge the weaknesses.
I really have to sleep now. I hope I can. I hate this insomnia. I hope this 10mg of melatonin and cup of sleepy tea will help.
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. (2 Corinthians 9-10)